Hard

I'm having a hard day emotionally thinking that in three short days we will be taking this little guy up north to Shriner's to get his casts put on. I won't get to snuggle like this with my little man for a long time and it makes me sad. I'm so grateful for the past 3 1/2 weeks I have had to snuggle and love on his sweet little feet. Sounds kind of silly but I'm going to miss his sweet little club feet when they fix them. 

     I will admit I'm super anxious about what this whole club foot process will be like. I just hope my little guy isn't in pain and I can be strong for him. Prob not a good sign that I'm sitting here typing and bawling just thinking about it. I know we will get through it and I'll look back and realize it wasn't as bad as I had anticipated but right now it looks pretty daunting. 

     I do have to remind myself that with all the complications I had during pregnancy, I truly am blessed that he is here, that he is healthy, and that the only thing we have to do is focus on getting his precious feet better. I am amazed at how much I love this little man. You always think- how could I possibly love another child the way I love my others, but your heart just gets bigger and you do :). I am so blessed to have four beautiful, healthy, happy (mostly ;) children. And of course a wonderful husband. My heart is full and grateful today.